St. Patrick's Day 2008 at Sheridan's
I came there with a bit jet-lagged feeling. I rang Laurence and Justin as I didn't see them there. But Laurence came there before me and shouted at me when I was just at a bar odering a mug of Amber. Justin came a bit later with his sister.
I didn't tell Laurence the ticket I gave to her was meant for Phuong though, otherwise she would never accept it. The conversation started by being asked how Singapore was. I said: well, it didn't go on the way as I expected, but it wasn't too bad. Nobody believed I made all the way there, but she didn't show up to see me. Yep, they were right - good for her but sucked for me.
I know it was an extreme reaction - far from an acceptable way one person can take. I myself felt hurt, too. I just decided I did right things - and it's her, not me, blow everything away. I was depressed of what happened - and I think I have paid for that - but I couldn't let the depression eat at me. Gotta get out of the moribund.
I felt much better this evening where there were many people could understand me. Even though I was too wrong, I deserved a better understanding and treat.
Now I give up! I will not ever do any further step for this matter. That's far from enough! I should have been more respected by her - now it's my turn to feel hurt.
I'd better get in bed and take a deep breathe. I will start a new day with a better feeling inside. I think my endeavours to go to Singapore was much appreciated by my friends, and they still can't believe I did that to just a girl I'd just fallen in. I do not feel regretted anymore...
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